we are leaving on friday for virginia, like it or not. ready, or not..
i still haven’t told my dad that i’m moving, lmao…. T_T
i’m working on my resume. i want to get an internship with an ngo or something similar. i don’t even care if i make any money. i just want experience, something to help me on my way. there are so many ngo opportunities in the DC area, it’s overwhelming. and little old me, i don’t think i’m at all qualified for any of them. all i have is experience in retail. i don’t even know how those skills would apply. customer service, shrink management. lol, counting money and keeping a balanced safe. no idea how any of that would make me stand out.
i had both netflix and hulu for a few months, but i cancelled them both, as i am no longer making money. my brother still has hulu through his school, because they seemed to have forgotten to cancel it or something, as he graduated. so anyway, he gave me his password to both that and his netflix password. we are so spoiled for options of things to watch, timewasters.
i’ve been watching castlevania, which, going on absolutely no foreknowledge, i thought would be a lot more lighthearted. it’s gothic and dark. i like it.
my mom is in a foul mood at all times, and the larger part of me doesn’t blame her. there is so much to do, so much going on. and she barely has any help. just me, really. i mean, i’m not in a great mood either, but i am great at hiding it.
i have been sleeping on the couch for the last coupla weeks, so my back hurts and i’m tired all the time, which is rather unfortunate in itself, but there is also a lot to do before we move. i feel like i’m no help. my stuff is basically all packed up now, and i am very little help to my mom i feel. she won’t let me do anything because like me she is a control freak, and so all i’m good for is moral support.
ooh and i went to the doctor, and apparently i have polycystic ovary syndrome. i went in just to be put on birth control because my periods are crazy irregular, and the doc asked me a few questions, did some blood tests, and a few days later i had the diagnosis. so not only are my hormones totally fucked (no wonder i’m an emotional wreck haha), also, i will probs have a hard time having children if i ever change my mind on that. so that’s great. i mean, i didn’t really want biological children, but i didn’t want the option taken away.
oh i guess i’m going to vote today. last important thing i’m going to do in iowa.
good luck to me in my endeavors.