i’ve been having such a hard time sleeping, and an even harder time getting out of bed in the morning. i’m not depressed, or as depressed. just slow-feeling.
the weather is gorgeous. i don’t go outside without our dog tho. need an excuse.
spring break was wasted on being sick and just lacking in motivation.
i don’t know what’s wrong with me. maybe this is it, lol.
the store is reopened, and busy. i’m in CO this weekend and work all next week ‘cept for friday.
tyler is graduating in a few months, crazy. so is armela, so is her boyfriend. and that’s just it i think: everyone is moving forward towards something good on the horizon. and i just feel like i’m treading water to stay alive. it’s a scary feeling. i still feel like me drowning in this is inevitable, and it’s not even that deep down in my mind, that feeling. death lies just beneath the surface of everything.