i made a doctor appointment for the 23rd. i’m going to have labs drawn and that is it. i’m pretty sure i’m going to come back anemic at best and my health totally shot at worst. i’m proud at making the appointment tho. i really don’t want to go. oh and lucy, our dog, has had her insulin increased, because she isn’t any better than before, and she has lost even more weight. she needs a new collar, it is so loose. i don’t want to lose lucy. i’ve been steeling myself for her death for a while now. she is going to die, and i cannot prevent it.