rachel is married. she has a different last name. ugh. its sort of like dying. watching people move on without you, with ease and without looking back. aj deleted his facebook. i hope he’s doing well. i’m still depressed. i still feel incredibly alone. and when new people reach out i push them away. i’m lost. i’m so scared of next semester. i’m afraid of failing. i’m afraid of fucking everything. i’m going to bed now.