there seems to be a rash of suicides in my vicinity. i mean, they are nothing to do with me directly, but i keep hearing about them. my cousin laura’s cousin on her father’s side killed himself a few weeks ago. a few days ago my aunt teresa’s husband steve’s nephew killed himself. both of these are on my mom’s side. then there was that suicide of the guy my shrink knew. he pulled out a gun at work and shot himself. that one was really triggering. i felt like it could have been me. he left a note apologizing, detailing all of the failed therapists and treatments. it just hit so close to my heart. i wish i could have met him.