i worked tonight, and work tomorrow, the next day, and then get a day off, and then thursday. that’s it for this week though so that’s nice. i’m feeling okay. i don’t know if it’s gotten worse or things are just the same and nothing has changed so it just feels stale and like this is just… it. i want to believe things will get better than this even. i don’t want to be like this. but i guess i will have to work harder on more little things before i can get to the bigger things. or maybe work on the big things a little bit at a time. ah, its all or nothing sometimes with me though.