our xmas came and went. good haul all around. we were going to go up north for another celebration, but now there’s a feud brewing over a statue my grandfather made, etc. addy’s going to winnipeg with some friends from school to go skiing and shit, and i’m really jealous and sad. i feel bad for feeling bad. i should be happy for him and part of me is. but i’m just jealous he has people who care about him and want to spend time with him, plus there’s that amsterdam trip that i can’t afford that’s irking me. everything is fine.