dark, you can’t come soon enough for me

i’m a bad person, and i deserve the scorn i receive from others. i deserve more. i’m so sorry for all the things i’ve done and said over years. i don’t deserve the kindness i receive. i don’t deserve my family’s sickeningly unconditional love. this isn’t a suicide note, just thoughts i have daily. i feel ashamed and broken and like a huge and utter failure at life and everything in between. i know deep down that these thoughts are just products of my sick and damaged mind, but they just keep coming.

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